Conversation with God

Me: God, this is impossible!!

God: Honey, thats when I do some of my best work!

Loving people through their "stuff" is really hard. Being loved in our "stuff" is really hard.

Tough love.

Actually caring about someone and not liking them at the same time can cause a great pull.

Division.

Tug-of-war.

The greatest commandment is for us to love God with all our strength, mind, body and soul.(paraphrasing)
The next one is to love our neighbor as ourselves. It doesn't say we have to like them. Lord, show us how to love when we dont even like sometimes.

We must love them.
We must step in the gap and interceede. Pray.

I think it can become easy to sit in our own feelings and fester. Let our emotions become a cauldron bubbling over.
Isn't it true that we are all sinners?
Doesn't the Bible say that no sin is greater then the next?
Let he who has no sin cast the first stone? I mean, didn't they all walk away from the prostitute when Jesus said that??
So if this is the case, why is it that some sin carries more weight then others?? Some sin causes much more pain and grief.
Lord, help us to see through your eyes. You bore ALL sin on the cross, simultaneously, so we could be washed clean by Your blood.
We are in need of Your balm. Salve. Healing.
Lord it is so apparent that we need YOU!!
Not some of the time.
ALL OF THE TIME!!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

Feeling the pull

I have been feeling the pull a lot lately to return to Zambia. The Orphan village has been completely funded by Jesus!! We needed only $30k more to complete it and it was given by a pastor who felt led by the Lord.

AWESOME!!!

One of the leaders of Breath of Heaven is currently there and has been posting pics on Facebook. I am missing the children and feel the call to return with the whole family.
I am praying that Gods timing be revealed
and the funds to be released....

Rain = dirt

I am beginning to think that my efforts are futile. Trying to maintain clean floors when I have a dog, cat, 3 children, and a husband who works in dirt.

Then to compound it with rainy days...

UGH.....why do I bother

Better to have little, with godliness, than to be rich and dishonest.
Prov. 16:8

Shhhh....

I am hiding from my sister mom, dont tell her where I am....